Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

Can you read this in Heaven? Do you check in on us? We all miss you. It is almost Christmas, it is next week. I am having everyone over for finger foods and to watch the kids open presents, just like you always did. The kids are getting so big. Well the boys are, Alta is getting taller. Parker is starting to forget you, but every once in a while he remembers and says something about you. And when I'm sad, he asks if I still miss you. I answer that I will always miss you. Landon doesn't talk about you much either, but he remembers you. It doesn't seem right that our world keeps moving without you. I saw a lady yesterday at the grocery store, she was built just like you and had the same hair color and cut, and since I only saw her from behind, for a second I got excited and thought it was you. I was so happyy that I finally found you. And then, I remembered. It couldn't be you. I wonder if I will ever stop searching for you, if I will ever stop getting butterflies everytime the phone rings. It doesn't feel like you are gone. Just away. And that you will be back. And how I wish that were true. It will be 4 months this month. It seems like yesterday. But at the same time, an eternity. I hope you are having fun up there. I hope we will meet again someday, but not very soon. I still have a lot to do down here. So, Merry Christmas, Mom. Have a great time celebrating up there with family and friends that have gone before or maybe after you.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Update on Alta

Alta has been seeing a GI for her reflux and poor weight gain since August. On October 18, she weighed in at 19 pounds 1 ounce. At her appointment on Thursday she weighed 18 pounds 10 ounces. So at that point, her GI decided to run a few more tests. So this coming Thursday, she will have a sweat test to see if she has cystic fibrosis. If that is negative, she will have an endoscopy done with a biopsy of her esophagus to see if she may have eosinophilic esophagitis. If that is negative we are going to try and find food allergies that cause her not to gain. We are also taking her off of dairy and soy to see if that helps. Prayers would be appreciated.